They left you. Whether they left you for someone else or it wasn’t working for them or they didn’t want to commit or in some way, they thought you were not “the one”, the bottom line is that they left you.
And it hurts.
And some days you feel as if you will never, ever get over it.
When any relationship ends, it’s challenging. It makes you look at yourself in a new light and usually the light is a very bright, hard and cruel one.
When you are the one who is left, you look for all the reasons why and inevitably it all comes back to you.
Maybe you weren’t enough.
Not pretty enough, not smart enough, not thin enough, not sexy enough.
You spend your days and nights sifting for clues among the memories of the relationship, analyzing what was said and done, wondering what you missed along the way that could have made a difference.
That would have made them stay.
That would have made them love you.
It can feel like there is big, gaping hole in your heart and soul that has been ripped away and when they left, they took your self esteem, your confidence and your dreams with them.
You find yourself saying things like “I can’t get him/her out of my head.” You wonder if maybe they were the only one who would ever really love you and the fear that thought brings is devastating.
Here is how you find your way back my lovely.
This is how you start dialing down the emotional pain, begin to think rationally and clear the fog of confusion and fear.
Grab yourself a pen and notepad, a big box of tissues and start working through these steps back to sanity with me. You can do it and it will do you the world of good. I promise.
Step 1. Seeing what’s real.
Time has a funny way of blunting the bad memories and highlighting the good ones. At the moment it may feel as if you have lost the love of your life, but were they really THAT good?
Challenge those stories of why they were so wonderful. Were they really? They are your ex for a reason so now it’s time to remind yourself of what all those reasons were. Take your pen and paper and make a list of how it really was.
Were they unreliable? Did they cheat on you? Were they untrustworthy? Did they leave you for someone else? Did they drink too much or have addictions? Were they always putting you down, picking fights or they just didn’t “get you.”
Did being with them mean that one of you had to change who you were or what you wanted?
Did you feel accepted, loved and cherished or always left uncertain or insecure?
Did you feel like you always had to be the perfect partner to make them stay with you?
Don’t hold back, be 100% honest and don’t in hindsight, make the issues seem less than what they were.
Remind yourself of how you REALLY felt in the relationship, remembering that the bottom line is; you deserve someone who loves you and accepts you exactly as you are, warts and all!
Step 2. Know what you really want in a relationship.
This is a great opportunity to start to get serious about what you MUST HAVE in a relationship.
What are your deal breakers?
How do you want to feel and how do you want to be treated?
We teach people how to treat us by what we are willing to accept.
Just read that sentence again out loud.
“We teach people how to treat us by what we are willing to accept.”
Without judging or attacking yourself, write down what you have been accepting.
Then take a new page and divide it into two columns.
Title column one “MUST HAVES” and column two NOT ACCEPTABLE.
Then start writing your dream list. Don’t hold back, put every quality that you want under “must haves”, list everything your little heart desires.
Once you are done, read through the list and notice how it makes you feel.
Now get to work on column 2 and list everything that is not acceptable. If you are stuck for inspiration, look at what you have under “must haves” and write the opposite.
Your first list shows you what you really long for and your second list will tell you what your heart and soul is not willing to accept.
When you accept what goes against your soul, when you make excuses and justify bad behavior in your partner, when you take less than you deserve it comes back and bites you right in your self esteem.
You start making yourself “less than” and marking down just how much you are worth.
Remember, you deserve someone who loves you and accepts you and adores you, exactly as you are right now!
Step 3. Letting go with love.
Now you are clearer on who they really were, how the relationship felt for you, what you really want and what you are not willing to accept.
Now it’s time to let go and it’s going to be better for you if you can let go with some love.
Feelings of anger, resentment and the desire for revenge do not hurt the other person, it hurts you.
To quote the Buddha: “Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.”
If you were meant to be together, you would be. Arguing with the reality, refusing to accept what is, causes so much emotional pain and it’s time to stop fighting what is.
If they truly are the one for you and you want any hope of reconciliation, you have to create the space for them to be without you, to have the experience of missing you.
You have to take responsibility for your own happiness, well being and for your life. The only person who can make you happy my darling is you.
When you give another person the responsibility for your happiness, you not only give away your personal power, you place a huge and unreasonable load on their shoulders.
Take your power back and start asking yourself “what can I do to make myself feel better today?”
When you feel ready to let go, write your ex a letter of goodbye but with a twist. Set aside a few hours when you know you will not be disturbed and write your heart out.
Don’t censor yourself, don’t judge yourself, just say to them everything that you want to say.
Be as angry, sad, or desperate as you want. Remember, do not judge yourself!
Once you are done, here comes the twist. Reply to the letter, writing as if you were them.
This may sound strange or even impossible but trust me, you will gain so much insight and healing from this final step.
Let go of your disbelief and just take the pen and reply to your letter in their words, in their voice, in their way.
There is a part of you that will know exactly what to write. Go with the experience and when you are all written out, prepare to let them go.
Have one final read through of the letter, the words from you and the words you channeled from them.
Have another cry if you need to.
Get a large heatproof bowl and twist each page of your letter into a long tube as tight as you can, one tube per page.
In a safe, open place, preferably outside, light up each page one by one and as the page burns down say “I forgive myself, I forgive you, I release you with love and I set myself free”
Following all these steps will start the healing process, give you insight and knowledge to what you really want and empower you to take charge of your own happiness.
If after this process there are still issues that you are having difficulty overcoming, seek the help of a compassionate therapist that you feel you have a rapport with.
Remember: You deserve to be loved, you are loved, you are loveable.
In the words of Alan Cohen:
“There are only three reasons to be with a relationship partner:
1.You love each other.
2.You want to be together.
3.Your lives are better for being together.
Nothing else matters.
Nothing else will work.”
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Be very kind to you.